One Christmas, Richard and I had a frightening experience with our youngest daughter, Chloe Elisabeth, who was two years old at the time. Richard and I were downstairs alone late on Christmas Eve, trying to get things in order for Christmas Day. The house was quiet since the girls were already asleep.
Suddenly, we heard a frightening gasp! Immediately in my heart I knew something was wrong. Richard and I raced up the steps to find Chloe Elisabeth at the top of the stairs, about ready to collapse. Her lips were swelling, her little chest was pulsating in and out rapidly, and when we looked closely at her, it appeared that she was beginning to turn blue at the corners of her mouth. I had no clue as to what was happening, but as Richard grabbed her in his arms, I raced to the telephone and called the doctor. He said, “Take her to the hospital right now.”
After Richard raced out the door with Chloe, I went back upstairs to be with our other two daughters, who were still asleep. I did something then that was truly out of character for me and which I don’t recommend to anyone else. In my frustration and concern, I just got up and with all of my might, I kicked the closet door in my bedroom as hard as I could.
There was nothing spiritual about what I did. I was just mad and scared, and before I knew it, something inside me broke and I fell on my knees and began to weep. There was nothing spiritual about my tears either. I was just hurting; a mother scared for her child.
And then God spoke in my heart as clear as a bell and said, “Lindsay, it’s all right to cry, IF you cry out to ME for miracles. It’s all right to get angry, IF you get angry at the devil. It’s all right to feel hurt, IF you turn to ME in your hurt.”
We all feel emotions ― sometimes very strong ones. God calls us to take spiritual aim with our feelings. Use your emotions to launch your faith to God, as the psalmist did when he said, “I will cry unto God most high; unto God that performeth all things for me” (Psalm 57:2).
NOTE: Chloe was fine by the time she returned from the hospital with Richard – PRAISE THE LORD!